If one day you decide to disappear,  how would you choose to do it?

I bet

I’m all cried out

I’m all tried out

I’m all fired out

Right now it’s killing me

'Cause now I have to find someone else

When all I wanted was you.

Secrets

Whats yours?

Place your hand on my beating heart

Lydia

Just a totally random thought.

There are times that we wish we could do things differently, things we would never do again if we had another shot at life. But presumably your life has been pretty good, would you do it all over again the same. or differently. Which would you pick?

I found it strange that I didn't have an answer for myself straight away. But once I imagined standing on the edge of a cliff with only 5 seconds to decide before I having to jump down , I got it.

Awareness

Drifting in and out of slumber, a feeling I'm only too familiar with. Disconnected. Just the body moving throughout the day, and the mind focusing on the tasks at hand. It's not easy to constantly be aware of things. It does take some effort at least, to think, to know, to truly feel.

Not sure whats the proper word for this feeling, its somewhat robotic. Periods of disconnection came regularly with mood swings too. Something was wrong. I wasn't happy. Or it was difficult to feel happy even though nothing extremely bad happened. I started wondering more. Often there were no straight answers to my questions, so I tried looking for them through people about these experiences. Talked to some friends but most of them questioned back if something had happened, why am I questioning life. Life is life. No matter how you question and look at it you still got to live it, be responsible and get through it. Asking me not to think so much, there's no point in doing so, some things just do not have answers. 

There's nothing bad/wrong with being aware. Regardless of what people say, I think thinking shapes me. I am aware I exist. I am my own person. I have control. I'm not saying that one should constantly be in deep thoughts 24/7, but thinking should not be discouraged. Questioning yourself is just as good as checking if you are alive. Telling someone not to be aware of their inner thoughts is almost as good as asking them to touch something but not to feel it. 

I'm not saying that thinking made me happier. It actually got me more depress than less, but I'm not sure if I would rather be ignorantly happy. And someone told me being depress is not such a bad thing because sometimes it makes you a better person. I agree, as long as you are strong enough to turn that energy around.

Try

Funny how the heart can be deceiving

More than just a couple o'times

Why do we fall in love so easy

Even when it's not right

Where there is desire

There is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame

Someone's bound to get burned